If it's too loud, then you're too old!

It's been a while I know but I've been pretty busy since I met Dave. The last time I wrote in here was when I first started talking to him and it's been a whirlwind since then! We of course started dating three days after I wrote that last entry and I'm so glad I found him. I've found out so much about him since then of course and like him even more since then. I love him. I would do anything for him(still can't think of something I wouldn't do yet....) and he would do the same for me. A lot has happened since I have met that man but I couldn't be any happier! Spring break was a little different because he went with. Dave, Ashley and I went to Nashville and had a blast! The last day we went to the opry and that had to be the highlight of the trip! Loved it!

Now the main reason I decided to write today was to mainly get all of this mumbo jumbo that has been filling up and clogging my brain. One of the major things that has been clogging my brain is a decision. Dave is moving to Dekalb in the fall to go to school and he asked me to move in with him. I'm still not quite sure what I am doing yet. I know it's only been 2 and a half months together with him but it seems like it's been so much longer. I've been able to see him at least every day since we both live in the same town. If I did move in with him then we would be further along in our relationship and I think we could handle it because right now it seems like we can't like without each other. We are impossible to seperate right now. We also have the problem of financial stability. We have decided that one of the main things we have to do is get bills paid off before we move in with each other. We already figured out that I probably won't be moving in right away because of that. Hopefully I can get my bills paid down to where I can still live with him and be able to afford it. Another thing is that I haven't told my parents that he asked me to move in with him. They are also a big part of my life too and I'm kind of scared to tell them. I don't know how they will react to this but I think I'm going to wait on telling them until I have finally decided that I would move in with him. It's just hard to see that far into the future now and this is all weighing down in my mind. Finding a job down there might be hard but it might be easy if I can just transfer to a new mcdonalds. I really don't want to do that but if it comes to it I might. I also decided not to sign up for classes next semester because I have no clue what is going on yet. If I move in with him in the fall I might go to Kishwaukee college next year. I have figured out that I have a lot of things I haven't decided on yet because of this big decision. It changes a lot! I hope it is all worth it in the end too. He can already see his future with me and I can already see myself with him. There is no one else. He is part of my future. I can't see myself finding anyone else that can even compare with him. It's hard to find a man that can be your lover and one of your best friends. Someone who you can laugh histerically at funny things with. It's just a different bond that I have with him that we just click. He has to be the one!

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*Kristin*

So much has happened today.....mostly depressing stuff, it sucks.

My day started off learning that one of my best friends dad is in the hospital. He collapsed on the dresser in his bedroom hitting his head. His heart stopped beating and he couldn't breathe. They rushed him to the hospital and right into surgery. They don't know if he is going to make it. He also had a job interview for the tollway, his first job interview in 20 years and he's been jobless for 2 years. My thoughts and prayers go out to my friend and her family. Hopefully they can get through this.

One of good friends and his girlfriend broke up today. Before they broke it off for good, they got all their valentine's day gifts delivered to each other. She lied to him. Not once, but twice. So it's done. And now I'm going to the Sadie Hawkin's dance with him because he already got a suit and didn't want it to go to waste. That's what friends are for.

Then something really bad happened. There was a shooting at Northern Illinois University in Dekalb, IL. 6 people are dead including the shooter. I never thought something like this would happen so close to home. Dekalb is like a 45 minute drive from my hometown and I have some friends there from high school too. I'm glad they are all ok but my thoughts and prayers go out to all the victims and everyone at NIU. They didn't deserve something like this.

Now for some good news. I'm talking to a guy named Dave from town. He graduated from the same high school I did when I was a freshman. He is a really nice guy and cute. Things are looking up in the relationship department! : )    We went out to lunch yesterday and haven't stopped talking since he found me on facebook. I can't wait to see where this goes!

It's been almost 2 weeks since the break-up and life has been going on as usual. I went back to school the monday after the break-up and I had a great time. I only have 3 classes so it's not too hard and I shouldn't have to drop any of those classes. Eric and Ashley broke up last night. She called me of course crying, which I did to her when Larry broke up with me. Which makes me wonder if there is something in the water in Clinton, Wi that is making the boys there crazy and want out of relationships. I have come to realize that I will never have the same relationship I had with Larry again. It seems like he is turning into a different person and I don't know if I like it that much. And again, I thought he was the "one". I guess not. I couldn't have been more wrong on that. I just wish now that I was happier with my life and that February would come sooner dangit! Then in March for spring break we're going to Nashville!! I just wish sucky January would get over with already......it snowed like 5 inches yesterday....yeah....it sucks.....

I just posted this on myspace and thought I would post it here too.....

I hope not to depress anyone else with this news but Larry and I ended things last night. I'm still trying to believe that this is real and that it really happened, but it will take me a while before I am my usual self again. I must have listened to "Trying to Stop Your Leaving" by Dierks Bentley at least 10 or more times since then.......I didn't see it coming this soon and although it's shocking and hard to believe, he must have felt like he was doing the right thing. He said we could still be friends but right now......I can't view him as a friend until my heart heals. It's going to take a while and I hope he understands the consequences of this but this is how I feel. I thought he was "the one" and didn't want anyone else, and gave my whole heart away.....I stayed up last night before I had to open today and was thinking alot about everything. I tried to sleep but I couldn't....just kept thinking. Razi and Tracy came over last night after I called them and told them about it. I couldn't have better friends than them. Ashley really made me feel better too! Larry if your reading this, thank you for a great 3 1/2 months. We made a lot of memories that I will never forget. And I will still love you from the bottom of my heart......I just need some time to recover from this, like I said, it won't be easy. Here are some quotes of inspiration......
" Life is like a merry go round, you never know who you're going to end up with"
- My dad
"Next time I give my heart away, I'm gonna save a little for me." -Next time I fall in Love by Ashley Ray